As the 66th day of my summer holidays is approaching the Finish line, so is my Blog.
In the past two years, I've disclosed to you my blessings (Lili's Gratitude); I shared with you my life story (Memoirs of an Idiot) and then, I revealed my grievances, wrapped up in Acceptance Speeches, and lastly, I took you on a summer journey, with Body, Mind and Vanity.
Words cannot describe how grateful I am to you for keeping me company. My literary adventures would not have been the same without you, my witnesses.
Sometime ago, I read somewhere that we all need a third space — a place between work and couch. A variety of people, places, hobbies and activities could be that transitional third space, where we replenish.
Almost two and a half years ago, when my older son got sick and my four-year-old relationship with Mr. Wrong came to an end, I lost faith in my fate and with it, my third space.
For a few months, nothing intrigued me long enough to absorb me. My optimism turned into fear, and raised my level of anxiety to the point that I started having long conversations with myself. I became so entangled in my thoughts, feelings and tales, that my only way out, was to share some of them with strangers, electronically. Gradually, my life became my Blog, and my Blog my life. At times, I would do things, go places or read articles for the sole purpose of sharing. However, without you, loyal readers, my new third space would've been a hollow place full of echoes.
Honour Thy Body - Renaissance Project, was an emotional renaissance, as well. I learnt to accept myself for who I am, thorns and all (Vanity being a sharp one). As far as my health is concerned, this summer, I spent a great deal of time and money, only to find out that it's not about making progress anymore, but about not regressing any further. From my TMJ, to my arthritis, low bone density and broken wing (that's what I call my invalid shoulder), it's all about maintenance now. Although exercise, regular grocery shopping and home-cooked meals are everyday activities of many people; for me, it has been a major lifestyle change. Hopefully, teaching a new grade (and mixology) will keep Mind busy enough to let us make third space all about Body.
Although Body is still wrestling with the flu residues and Vanity can't stop mourning the remaining 24 ounces, clothes are pressed, chicken breasts marinated, bunches of kale washed and cut up and a dozen hard-boiled eggs nested in the fridge. I am ready to face WORK! Well, at least for the next few days.
I wish you a beautiful autumn and a mild winter. May all your days be filled with joy and all your nights with peace, if not with ecstasy!
With Much Gratitude,
Lili
