The Diary of an Older Woman

Dear Friends, 
Today, my friend, very disappointed in my behaviour, urged me to change my mind. 

I'm not sure whether it was vanity, curiosity or boredom, but something made me re-open the pandora's jar. I e-mailed Him to ask for his phone number. He also attached a picture of himself.  

My keyboard pal is fit, good-looking, charming, self-assured and insisting. But, in my opinion, he is  still abnormal, for wanting to meet me. I even enlarged his picture on my screen, to support my belief; his eyes do reflect a disturbed soul. Of course, my imagination has already taken me from An Affaire to Remember, to Psycho to Gold Rush!
After 18 short, non-committing e-mails, following the golden rule of the Rules, I terminated our electronic conversation. The poor boy doesn't know what he is getting into! He is looking for the mature woman in the wrong girl! 
I called my friend for support and feedback, but all I got was,"Grow up Lili! I don't understand why you can't call him."
The whole experience feels surreal to me. As an array of thoughts and emotions climb into bed with me, I become determined to immortalize them in The Diary of an Older Woman, if not in the name of research, at least for show-and-tell.
According to the experts, feelings are timeless, they don't grow with us. Thus, I don't see why I was told to grow up. Certain emotions don't need to be labelled childish! Accepted and filed! What have you accepted and filed today?