Green Pride

Dear Friends,
I had almost persuaded myself to welcome my premature initiation into Senior's Club ( A Lost Battle, May 31), when I heard my ex-husband's sister, who at 62 doesn't look a day older than 40, is walking down the aisle, on the arm of her childhood sweetheart who also happens to be a well-to-do doctor, in the sunny Texas.
Since green is one of the most popular colours of the season, I decided to wear it, with pride, not feeling a bit bad about feeling envious. 
This bride-to-be, always gets what she wants! Not only she knows where she wants to go, but she also possesses the most comprehensive road maps. I, on the other hand, keep drifting in and out of life's episodes, mostly depending on other people's sense of direction. 
As the saying goes, when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. Martha Beck's article, The Grass Ain't Greener (Oprah's Magazine, June 2013) appeared at the most opportune time. The renowned life coach's claim that some of us suffer from Fear Of Missing Out, didn't resonate with me. I don't have fear of missing out, I know I've missed out! However, I took the title and the gist of the message to heart. 
First, I took a close look at my lusts: youth, celebrity status and money. Next, I discovered I won't consider plastic surgery, go anywhere near Botox, or even dye my hair! Then I realized, as much as I like to have a "certain lifestyle," I don't particularly like to commit, compromise, or to give up control. I know, I'm as unreasonable as few of my seven year-old students, who expect solutions to fall off the ceiling, right into their laps, without having to lift a finger. 
Although I'm puzzled as to why, in this high tech era, no one has invented a wishing machine yet, reluctantly, I accept and file that for now, I'm stuck with an independently managed, low-maintenance, pale green floating lawn. What have you accepted and filed today?